I’ve been feeling a little dumpy lately. I haven’t been able to pin point what exactly is causing the feelings. It could be a little homeschool burnout, it could be a little mommy burnout, it could be that I’m trying to do a little too much and it could be some frustration with my eating/weight loss issues. I don’t know. I’ve been trying to not focus on my “feelings,” trying to stay busy.
In that staying busy I think I’ve lost sight of a simple pleasure. I’m such a task-oriented person by nature. I don’t even have to make lists (though I love too) usually the tasks are ticking across my brain at lightening speed.
Tonight I made myself go outside and play with my children. I made myself sit in the sun. I made myself enjoy the little people that fill my day with messes and tasks.
But they are so much more than messes and tasks. They are my reason for living. They are the reason I do the things I do each day. Shame on me for not taking time to enjoy them, to engage them, to be with them.
So I sat out there and watched them play, cheered at their little tricks that they always want to show me, gave them challenges (like kicking themselves in the behind when they ran-Laffy Taffy thought this was a riot!). I set up a holla-hoop jump challenge (complete with “hot lava”) and even jumped through it myself a couple times! lol
It was really a lovely time and it left me feeling good, peaceful. It made me realize that maybe my priorities are out of whack or
maybe I’m just spending my energy focusing on the wrong stuff. I can’t lose sight of what’s really important even though dirty floor and messy kitchens drive my nuts, the time I spend with my children is the “task” that matters most and is ultimately the most satisfying.
Holding on to joy,